Sunday, April 24, 2011

A look back...

I have to be honest, I don't really remember a lot of specifics about the past year (probably due to God's mercy), but my family reminded me of the blog entry I wrote a year ago so thought I'd post it again...

Back on track today as they've restarted the chemo. One day closer to being 75% done!! Today was a pretty good day. I've been fighting a headache which they say is from the LP- not sure how long that will last. It dawned on me this morning that this is the start of holy week and as much as I dislike the current journey that I'm on, it brings me closer to understanding the meaning of Easter. Without a cross, it is very difficult to follow Christ or understand what he did for us. Obviously all of us have our cross, mine happens to be big and hard to miss. Carrying it has allowed me to participate in Jesus' sacrifice, to relate a little better to Christ. Even though I won't be able to attend any Holy week services, I feel closer to Jesus this Easter than any other. I pray that as I bear my cross, I won't become bitter but rather that I'll have a greater appreciation of what our Lord did for us. That I'll be more motivated to follow and to serve. And after we've won this battle (and had a great party) I pray that God shows me how I can use this experience to serve Him better.

If any man would come after me, let him deny himself, take up his cross and follow me. ~Matthew 16:24
Posted by Janna March 28, 2010

Friday, April 22, 2011

Happy Easter!

Hard to believe that it's Friday already, and that Easter is here! Not much has changed from the “health front” - maybe a little more hair and a little more weight ;) I'm still feeling good and sleeping good. Labs are stable – would like to have a few more platelets and a lot more strength, but so it goes. Last week when I was in Omaha, they didn't see any evidence of that pesky virus that won't seem to go away, (yea!) but this week the labs detected it again – very confusing, such the roller coaster ride. But what's new? I've come to expect the unexpected. Good way to help me remember who's really in charge I guess.
This week, I hope that you've all had time to truly think about “Easter”. I have to admit that I've had a hard time preparing for Easter. I can't seem to quiet my mind long enough to ponder how much Jesus endured in order to guarantee us a way into heaven – the betrayal, the denial, the abandonment, the physical pain... It's hard to think about all the suffering that occurred during the days preceding Easter, but if you choose to skip over that and go straight to Easter morning, it's just bunnies and baskets. To fully experience the true joy that Easter offers, you have to acknowledge the great sacrifice and love that led up to it. If you've never seen the Passion of the Christ, I highly recommend it – it's hard to watch, but it will give you a new appreciation for Easter and Christ's love for us. May you have a wonderful Easter – one full of overwhelming, unending joy.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” - John 3:16

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

“Not typical” - really? No!! :)

Mom, Dad and I made our monthly trek to Omaha today. As if we didn't already know, my body's response to this journey is once again “not typical” according to Dr Vose. This time it's in regards to why my hair hasn't grown back in the 300 days since my transplant (that's right, we've passed yet another landmark – 300 days!!!) Everything else looks good and Dr Vose is happy with my progress. She hopes to have me off all the immunosuppressants within a couple months and then take me off all the other meds – yea! That means removal of restrictions surrounding things like eating salad and working in the yard! We just need to keep the stem cells “playing nice” in the clubhouse yet not falling asleep on the cancer watch. Those would be the top 2 things on my prayer request list, with return of strength being #3. (I'm afraid I'm still a long way from returning to the athletic field :( And as for the hair regrowth – not sure that that makes the Top 10. I'll just be content with the pixie cut and having to put sunscreen on to protect my scalp! God has promised me a lot of things and has always provided more than I needed and all in the perfect timing. Can't recall any promises about “hair” during my quiet times but guess that too is in His plan – after all, he knows how many hairs are on my head, so he's well aware that I'm still on the sparse end of the spectrum. Must be a lesson here somewhere :)

“Indeed the very hairs of your head are all numbered...” Luke 12:7

“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as long braided hair... Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. I Peter 3: 3-4.

Monday, April 4, 2011

He is ABLE

Wow- what happened to last week? Maybe it’s the thought of spring finally being around the corner that made last week go so fast – I can tell you that I definitely spent all week looking forward to the beautiful weather of the weekend! So I guess that’s my excuse for not sending an update – oops. Things continue to steadily improve leaving little room for complaint. My labs are stable (if not improving) and I have good energy, continue to sleep well (praise God!) and am slowly but surely able to “do” more and more. Not quite to sand volleyball or Ultimate shape, and my hair is growing too slow, but all that will come. Next week I head back to Omaha.
This weekend I went to a Women’s Conference and it was a great reminder of many things, but one of the big ones for me was that whatever we’re facing, our problems are not bigger than the power of God. God is able to do infinitely more than we could ever ask or our brains could imagine. So we need to let God out of the box that we’ve created and pray like we really believe that God is “able”! Give him the opportunity to amaze.
 
The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with his Love, He will rejoice over you with singing." -Zeph 3:17